I'm not a tough person. Before anyone starts thinking that, I would like to inform you that I'm not.

I'm stupid girl who cries over the stupidest of things--I haven't done so in while, but I almost did out of pure frustration when I had to recite a sonnet from memory and when I had misplaced my iPod yesterday and couldn't find it. (Found it before bed. It was beneath the corner of the couch cushion).

I'm a stupid girl who knows nothing--that's why I had to switch into Trig because I was too stupid to do Calculus and too stupid to pick it as my class in the first place.

I'm a stupid girl who talks and writes before she thinks. I'm a stupid girl who comes up with stupid ideas.

I'm a stupid girl who can't do anything. I'm stupid girl who can't finish anything.

I'm fat. I'm short. I'm a fucking weirdo. I wear glasses because I'm near-sighted.

When someone is mean to me, I can't stand up for myself.
When I'm accidentally rude or mean to someone, I try to apologize and hope they forgive me because I'm not a naturally mean or rude person.

I'm annoying and obnoxious and I'm not going to deny it. I do or say things that prove it.

I only have a few friends and I'm not sure how long they'll stay my friends because of how stupid and annoying and obnoxious I can be.

There are days when I hate myself for how I am and wish I was normal.

I say stupid things. I write stupid things. I'm stupid. I can't do anything right.

I want to go to college, but what's the point? It's like High School but tougher and I'm not sure I can handle that pressure.

There. The truth. That's me. I'm sorry for everything.
You guys don't how hurt this made me, writing all of my faults, and I'm silently crying as I'm writing this.

This isn't for attention. This is me trying to get people to better understand. I wrote nothing but faults, but I don't think there's anything positive about me. I don't know. You'd have to meet me in real life to judge that for yourself and we all know that's not going to happen.

Perhaps I should just leave DA because I feel like it's only a matter of time before everyone on here starts to hate me and want me gone.

I'm sorry!